Its not that I'm being emo but I reckon that this is the low periods in me that might not be apparent to u.

I dont tell as much as before neither do I show much especially to people who's not really bothered and so into themselves yet trying to 'act' like they'll be there and end up!!-flyyyy to their world.... But yar, I'd still need someone someday to vent evrything that's kept inside; be it cry out/drink down to sorrows/club till leg cramp/overnight talk and excessive cigging. haha. But thing is, who is it?? I recalled that the worst time I had before, its almost always some others who's there. Is god implying something?? hahs.

I goes to school and work as normal as I can be. I tried to fulfill everything I could and ought. And I'm getting really sick & tired. If it weren't for all those............

I used to thought I was very fortunate to have a group of sisters aka buddies, one true BF and perfect family.

I hope time could turn back to when I was feeling so fortunate but no, I've to admit its not that fortunate as I thought and harder to be as time passes.

Now, when I need any of them, they ain't that 'available' straight too. (even not really trying to seek, can alr predict)

Do understand that people grow into their lives more as we grow but isn't it such a pity?

Realized we aren't the best of all in any way now.

People comes and goes- I had already seen that fact but still, I cant help feeling upset and shitty.

Once at a period of time when I dint had the group & bf (sorry for not counting other individuals), I had this GF and we were so close, so steady and good. I felt supported and cared and vice versa. Its not what those typical people does; the 'half-half efforts'. Now, can only say we fell under the same category as described above. Nevertheless, thanks.

I wanna club, drink till drop and go mad for somewhile. A getaway is best but, sighs. I wanna go missing but, so childish? haha. mayb can try.

"Its hard to say what she really needs as she fear"..