I didn't do anything to let you down

I noe what I did and I noe how you slashed my heart straight now.

After 2 years plus, thats all I am to you.

However depressed I may get, I must tell myself not to fall like then again.

But only can laugh at my cries right now.

Perhaps I just wasn't right or rather, in your opinions, would be wasn't too good for you.

I need a bf that could takecare of me physically and mentally. Do you?

If you come across this, pls, Im not trying to blog here and 'BITCH' abt the negative side of you & me. I just take this as my only source of venting out and pillow. I dont really talk to anyone abt the pains in me anymore.

After the messages this aftnoon, I really felt very hurt. Really monster, big big monster.