The days

2009-04-08T14:36:00.003+08:00

Okay, Im not a regular blogger anymore and seems to have had disappeared ya?

Many many thgs to rant but guess its time for another silence.....

the last blog when I bid goodbye was 05? and now will be till?

haas.

Gonna start a new one or have none.

*memories lingers

2009-03-10T02:39:00.007+08:00

HELLO ?!

>.<

*DELETED THE LATEST EMOFIED POSTS VENTING/WEEPING MYSELF VERBALLY. LETS BE SIMPLIFIED & EASY ON IT.

BE SOMEWHAT, DRAMTIC?

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" HAPPY 2 0 0 9"

THATS WHAT I SAID ON 31/12/08 ; 12AM

& THANK YOU SO MUCH,

SO "HAPPY" !

*SCREAMSS- HOPING ITS JUST SO FAR.

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GLYNNIS MET HER...

MmM...

MAJOR EMOTIONAL FALLS *

STARTED: JAN 10??

ENDED: PENDING

I KINDA THINK IM TRYING TO PORTRAY MY DARKNESS IN HUMOUR. *NOT LAUGHING*

'HAHAHAS'

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HAD LOST TOUCH WITH PICS SINCE ..... 09!

MAJOR "EVENTS" THAT TOOK PLACE

1 THE BREAK UP

2 TORN UP

3 BROKENED UP

4 SCREWED UP

5 ALRIGHT, FIXING UP.

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SERIOUSLY, I THINK I KINDA RUINED MY OWN ACTUAL BIRTHDAY'S DAY THIS YEAR.

20TH ON 19TH JAN~

'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU'

THANK YOU,

SO " HAPPY ".

(ALRIGHT, SAME OLD LINE, PURPOSEFULLY )

ANWS, MANY TKS TO MY FAMILY & FRENS "CELEBRATING MY EVENTS" STATED ABOVE.

LOVES*

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IM BACK HERE HOPEFULLY TO PRESENT BETTER THINGS AT A REGULAR PACE FOR MEMORY LANE.

ANYONE STILL FREQUENTS HERE? -WONDERS-

(I HAD LOCK THIS BLOG UP FOR A FEW MONTHS - JUS LIKE I LOCKED MYSELF I RECKON)

WILL TRY TO UPLOAD SOME PICTURES PERHAPS.

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*ALRIGHT, THE REAL TALK?!

I THINK I LEARNT SOME GD POINTS THAT HAD BEEN NURTURED IN THE HARD TIMES . I SAW A GLYNNIS THAT COULDN'T BE OR EVEN THINK LIKE B4.

ALSO, GOT IN A CLOSER BOND WITH FAMILY/ RATHER, MUMMY!

I can only say be kind & forgiving. dont take anyone/anythg for granted. always cherish. Time can never turn back. be true to yrself ultimately. if thats how you feel, show it. if thats how you think, do it. nvr leave regrets. however, deep thoughts with self control is needed as well.

so, advice is to dont touch alcohol when you know that deep inside is suspressed with many kinds of emotions. hahaha -alright, reminding myself thru incidents & incidents =P

MANY thanks to the peeps who were either bombed with emotions by me/ bombed with calls/ bombed with 'whatever'. thanks all frens even if i never mention yr name. you know if you are one. (=

I lost due to the feelings & attachment with you.

I needs you, I wants you & I loves you, still.

2008-12-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

Not happy at all.

Just lack the courage to leave.

Dad's hospitalised thrice this month, I'm feeling the pains still tho.

Actual christmas was disappointing, disgusted and upset......

sometimes close ppl are the one that can kill you.

I hope I can really dont give a damn anymore.

Im so lazy even to rant here. My life is in a total mess with me not making firm and right moves.

I dont wanto be sad unnecessarily!! sighs.

Aims to quit smoking cus of my dearest father~

2008-12-01T02:56:00.006+08:00

Yes, its finishing. Just some touch up.

Was so tempted when she asked me to go on a roving job @ boat quay and stuffs instead when I told her I'm sick of Dbl O.

Slacking off while working at Obar

Gonna somehow inevitably miss this freaking places.

Hennesy? haha

Uniformed us that night

(syl, me, silver & amanda)

We dint care and went in twos that day =P
A total slack for me & syl and high for the other two? lol. pls take care.

I guess I wont be working this job anymore. Find it a pity and had struggled to balance for a long time between things tho.

Will definitely misss those paid night life with priorities and peeps. loves!

Things went off fine with my thickked skin / calmness?
I dont know, still feeling so lost and bottled up.
Just what do I want, hahs.

2008-11-29T13:07:00.002+08:00

I didn't do anything to let you down

I noe what I did and I noe how you slashed my heart straight now.

After 2 years plus, thats all I am to you.

However depressed I may get, I must tell myself not to fall like then again.

But only can laugh at my cries right now.

Perhaps I just wasn't right or rather, in your opinions, would be wasn't too good for you.

I need a bf that could takecare of me physically and mentally. Do you?

If you come across this, pls, Im not trying to blog here and 'BITCH' abt the negative side of you & me. I just take this as my only source of venting out and pillow. I dont really talk to anyone abt the pains in me anymore.

After the messages this aftnoon, I really felt very hurt. Really monster, big big monster.

2008-11-28T14:33:00.011+08:00

HELLO!

Well, photos uploaded from weeks back till recent (=

Top one ktv session

me & jes

jac, jes & me

Enjoyed!

Thats not all~

Steamboat session!

There were a wide variety of food and its delicious and fresh!

There's many people alr just when the shop opens. Shortly after we sat, there was a long queue alr. phew!

Live prawns and fresh crabs! yummy yum yum!

The ones to be grilled can be passed to a station and they'll cook it and send it to you.

our stingray. hees.

Even bbq-ed mashmellows

& this is what happens when you plays with it too much? lol

The finishes.

Their desserts are good. I loved the choc eclair.

Chun huat live seafood(steamboat) @ novena!

lol. free ad for them?

heheheThe bad shopping days!
Worked @ muee vivo

wow, so crowded!

Boring.
Currently jumping ard 3 jobs but I feel that I'm soon leaving with none or half.

moneymoney come. oh gosh,

The food fair @expo

Bought 2 bottles of red wine & snacked. hehes. TIRED. But I love food, no choice.

& they are the girls for hennesy promoters @ dbl O. Support support! hahs.

sylvia, me & silver

syl, me & vivi

((=

My classmate cum collegue cum partner. <3

We click on well and hit it off. Slacked aft work that day @ TCC among ourselves, had snacks and craps plus secrets disclosure. haha. I know we're bet to meet more people as we work.

Therefore, I know its hard for me to work on this line as I'm attached and no matter how much I wish to stay on, at the same time I wanna say I really detest the job thats seemingly too approachable. I believe they are too. Its just for the money afterall I reckon.

2 cups of volcanoes = ?

......

Anyway, had fun with them everytime the clock strikes (?) LOL. planning to go on smiroff roving, heard its much better. But shots pays better alot. hmm

However, I noe its gonna be hard. Jus bless me. I'm lost in the path to take, seriously.

Feels so lonely and empty inside.

2008-11-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

Yeah, alil updates b4 photos and stuffs

End of exams, celebrated - Top one ktv session & steamboat @ chun huat *yummy*

Back to work - muee, downtown E!hub & liquor job assignments @ Dbl O.

Mahjong too!

---Good & bad times

Misses

2008-11-11T23:12:00.003+08:00

My 'si san yao' that day @ xiaona's place. whoo.

Now, this girl below is not working nor really studying. she's getting really lazy. I miss the her who works and get her part of 'income' yet like the way she leads so free and easy now. alright, dreams needs to end. I'm coming back to society needs. -.-''

Last week at plaza sing's xin wang

Yummy yum yum. Im addicted to good food. & its eating my pockets alot. damn.

TAPE MY MOUTH UP. LOL.

My dad says : present for you

Right~ haha. sweet still. (=

He met with a bike accident as a car drove into his lane without even signalling. Now, He's on a 7 days mc and he aching so badly that he can't even cough. If it wasn't for the quarrel last night that made him slept in my room, I wouldn't know its that bad. My heart really aches alot, I'm willing to bear the pain for him if possible. I love my dad. & yes, had a quarrel with my bro. Almost killed. lik wtf. Seroiuslt, I cant take so much ppl. Bloody hope I could just leave but pls, be mature. So yes, and bear the pains.

2008-11-06T01:29:00.007+08:00

HEYHEYHEY~

Super overdued photos briefly uploaded

It'll add on to my memories more vividly again.

Dead beat ? =P

Some lil donuts I bought on the way home to indulge myself alil more =D

(Its all past weeks?)

Food definitely is smthg main for me (=

But this tempura ice cream sucks~ outlet at marina, everythg seems unfresh .

Spot this new? ice cream shop at city link. the system is cool andd its nice. many varieties and its made on the spot to u. yums!

Gina's birthday last last last week or somthg. lol

Loves & misses to that gal. Its so late that Im publishin only now but still hope u had the day to the fullest. ^^

The singapore flyer

One of the viewa

I din know that my legs will tyrn alil soft~ LOL
Im grabbing the poles.

Randomly, I passseddd my TP! hohoho. Great luck for me. thank god.

Sch's been piling up with presentations, reports, assignments and stuffs.

& next week is exams. I'm lazing and procrastinating like hell still. Save me! >.<

This is one of the interview we made for a [roject.

& the project meet up at centerpoint's new york new york

I've been eating like 2 meals for every one meal. HELLLP!

Cash running very low. Glynnis, get working!! -.-''

Pardon me to stain the ending with emotions as I always left it unsaid already.

I dont think this should go on,

getting aimless and aloof.

2008-11-04T23:54:00.003+08:00

Hello, its been along time that this is left stagnent?

Photos uplaoding soon from last week's 'flyer' to ............

I announced myself halfway in hibernation ~

When I'm alone, I see the emotions calling

I choose to turn my back on it

and keep moving on...

2008-10-22T13:30:00.003+08:00

Really dont know what I'm doing to my time

my 2nd TP's coming but I guess I'd still fail due to NO practice.

lazy to go into elaboration.

Just feels that its wasting my time, money and efforts!

>.<

Many stuffs to do for sch yet procrastinating

Job's low = money low but still spending.

GLYNNIS~ get smthgs with sm ppl of sm areas done, can you?

2008-10-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

Xiaona's baby girl, carina! =D

She will be your strength pretty ^^ loves.

& here comes JANE'S 19th, FINALLY~ hahahah!

Drink, drank, drunk? 4 martells. & I returned penniless. whts gg on? haha. Well, I love seeing this old and raggered group thats seemingly deteriorating yet still holding the bond?! <3

But sometimes, one is really not enough.

Miss MJ-ing. hahaha. & I got this lil lighter that I happened to see at bugis. Huat man. LOL

Finally, I let it out alil. The rest is for you to realize.

Smtimes, I really feel lonely. I'm afraid my choices are wrong.

2008-10-16T23:00:00.001+08:00

Glynnis, be strong, you've been through worst.

yet, she's barely hanging on...

2008-10-14T23:15:00.016+08:00

yoyo!

Had this production name 'third space series' at esplanade last week. It lasted bout 6 days but I went only 3 days as I had cramps and fell sick, thus, very restless. sorry guys, hehs. Having some bad times as well. =(( And, I lost the cab receipt to claim my cab fare back. (yes, I wanto mention) just my luck, forget it! lol. Oh, not to forget, mr wong is being very kind to me (=

We were asked to go on stage to help them do their plotting of lights and stuffs.

Glynnis

Sylvia

andddddddddd

Jeslyn

LOL! well, she was helping the show named 'shaman's cat' as shown below. (look at her face expression) LOL!

Its pretty creepy!

The lil black & white tv screening the front stage. Was supposed to be the asm(assistant stage manager) in charge of stage left and stuffs.

It just sounds nice. These are some other 'maid-y' jobscopes.

Do misses the times tho esp for me, its short. We had so much 'time' in fact and glad that there were them, if not I couldn't survive even a day.

We had MOF @ marina south! =D

Headed for a clubbing session with the girls and seriously, it was such a 'wonderful' journey! *pui.

St james

isit due to the downfall of MOS? wadeva~ the bouncers of powerhouse, I hope I can tell you to shut up and let us all in to enjoy comfortably. >.<

Leaving in fumes and heaves of sighs.

But we made it to dbl o at last! thanks to the bouncer of Obar ((=

& we headed to zouk after that. This clubbing day wasn't very smooth but at the end, I guess we had enjoyed? hees!

The last take of my long hair b4 I head down to city plaza & get it removed!

& this is my beloved dad's day @ seafood paradise under the singapore flyer

making a reservation still made us wait~

My dad look so cute here. hahaha.

& yes, I love food! *if only thgs are better for me to enjoy and laugh.

But anws, yummy!

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They are the ones for me who loves me always ya.

We sat outside to make it easier for our birthday king father to smoke. Nice view~ I gave him a wallet and he's digging for money. hahahaha! He can be really fun when its time to be.

& there's $5.90 ! There's meaning yea.

He's happy and we're.

FOOOD.

Got 2 tickets @ 50% disc

I dint tell him anythg, lets see how it goes.

My own mischieve and , lamao.

Im aint sure why are u becoming like that

I'm not sure what can I do

I feels different.

I just hope everythg will be fine for us.

GOODNIGHT

2008-10-14T01:15:00.004+08:00

I'd love to upload all the overdued pics/videos stored in my phone but timing's not too right I suppose. Stay tune ya, I'd upload asap!

Been rather unhappy.

Don't even want to say much here even tho I hope it'll be my 1st/only resolution.

Somehow, I'd rather stay home to myself when the feeling is getting out of control.

Silence left me with facades 'talking'.

I'm just a normal girl too!!

2008-10-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

LOVE FOOOOD & JUS RANDOMLY TAKING PICS WHILE WAITING FOR THE REST ORDERS TO REACH

Mad Jack @ peace center

My grilled fish in honey & lemon sauce changed to cream sauce and forgotten to change rice, rice set?

HAHAH

they'll know.

& Im so hardworking to eat in the office still doing work! hoho.

My unagi don & taiwan fried chocken

Super full esp with 2 pkts of vitasoy! haha. I love to drink that when Im working at EK, dont know why.

Now you're not gonna be out there for me even every 12 hrs le, I do miss you aight!

IM TALKIN BOUT YOU MR ANGSHUYI okay! <3

I'm lagging behind people's memories or simply, the heart's not there?

when I saw this bunch of girls crapping while taking shelter under the block as the rain pours.

I wondered "Where's my group?"

'haha' I went.

left for to each its own, I whispered to myself.

Mj brought me out of life. gonna cut down le(=

assignments, projects, tp, exams, presentations, work, sch...................................

so much to do & bear & strive for.

Diff ppl really diff life. =(( You dont know mine!

TIRED but, clubbing tmr? ^^

I miss the feeling & the alcoholic smells, alot, alot.

what

2008-09-29T01:17:00.019+08:00

The trip to malaysia last week?

- DESERU

(Very late updates now, I know)

Im pretty lazy to arrange the pics & videos according to 1st actuvity onwards. Hence, I'd just go by which pic/videos comes first ya.

*random

Last activity at night- trip to fireflies catch

Its hard to catch, really hard. enjoyed the boat ride, the wind, the creepy feeling and the beautiful lil bugs filling the trees up like a christmas tree.

while waiting for our turn
These egg-shell like lights are ostrich eggs!

The food they sell there at the ostrich farm

We're tooooo tired - bus journey

The dinner at a 'restorsan'

The white chicken

This is how much an ostrich egg produces - feeds 25-30 people
CUTE black chicken feigning asleep to avoid being killed?A baby ostrich coming out from its SUPER hard shell

the two comedians- wang sa and ye fong. LOL They DONT MOVE AT ALL

Eun says this is handsome

Ostrich praying? lol

Its laying eggs!!

You see, they are superrrr hard!

I spent much time jus looking at them!

Its eun's drink. LOL
They are super human like!

OH, how I wished my rabbit can be back to a baby. =P
All of them are on a table. wow.
I fed this. haha

Bee house without nets or anythg surrounded*ouchThese are bananas!!! heard its very accurate to wishes esp of more children kind.
Him again, hiding an apple from us. LOL
This lil one only scratches his hand. haha

Saw her jus on the floor . man.

This is fresh passion fruit.

Papayas! if there's big long flower, it means thats its male= cannot bear fruit
well, just trying to tell you we're in a FRUIT FARM and its super burning hot.

Very nice when they swim together in a direction. ALOT of them
HI~ Its me & eun
-.-''

The group

She's trying to be funny with a lil jackfruit found on the floor

Spot the difference?
We're wearing each other's specs!

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Poor dog tied to rusty sharp chains stucked under sunlight

They were like seeking help from people when we go over
I did touched as I really pities them. =))

VIDEOS

baby ostrichs

The ostriches in a surrounded area

Opening the ostrich egg.

Monkey's drink offered by miss se eun.

Monkeys are really smart

Much more but I am getting bored of uploading. hehe.

it was an enjoyable trip esp with my buddy & family around tho I slept only 2 hrs the night b4 and am super tired.

Reached home dirty, smelly and itchy.

BATHED like I never for a week and SLEEP like I never for 3 nights.

lol.

MJ & MJ at my house. & I seems to had lost touch with the outside world of entertainments?

MJ session @ my house on a rainy day = umbrella parade!

Well, I hope I'd be back soon to u peeps and places! haha.

Ok, its Party world last week too? ~

haha. I found out smthg abt them/her? & so jus nice I caught both of u in a picsingling tog!!
hees*

Its an art aint it? LOL. The walk at town

Well, I still goes to work

Both MUEE & EK

Finally went SOKA with mum. He went along and wore my sunglass. lol

COOL la

Watched HOUSE BUNNY with bf

finally we caught a show and this show is what I wanted to watch (= Thot everythg's gonna be nice but always at the end, I'm caught by shocks.

After the show, supposed to head home for MJ session straight but we had a big quarrel again and I cant imagine thgs like this still happens. The tears flows inside, the fear intringed attacks and I just wished that we can be normal? walking away being emotionally controlled to cant think and be thoughtful yet accusing and blinded by the goods is really bad. I may be at fault & you may be tooo angry but there's no need for such a big fuss to be made. I really hate it! I hate that you. I hate that to happen! I thot those 'drama scenes' are over!

I said: "why family dont break no matter what happened is becus of a bond called blood ties. So what bond do we share?"

Can we all have a bond like blood ties people?? Its hard to not mix your heart and brain together at times but always look at situations can we?

-peace-

Driving lessons re-starts!

2008-09-25T12:51:00.005+08:00

HELLO

Oh ya, any readers : pls respect the freedom I have with my own 'diary'. Either ya understand or not, dont bring me unnecessary issues. I accept u to be silent so pls remian so)

The food that time ( @ IKEA)

This salmon's not nice~ =(

Best? hah

Finally bought my MJ table a week ago and below was the first round played at my house with my MJ table. Tks sis alot^^

While waiting. =P

Qing yi se, hua hu, da xian san yuan, da xiao si xi blah blah blah....HUAT AR!

LOL

My mum- the extra, joker and winner. >.<

More MJ kakis come come (=

The interview setting at spinelle * I've a bad satisfaction there.....

Some time ago too....

HAHAHA! & I plucked my eyebrow out too. Im quite stupid in those ya.

Some days are really long & dead beat

Yesterday: 9am sch to 1pm

Test (over flooded my brain with all theories)

Headed to and fro from NAFA to esplanade by LEGS as no transport are allowed in MS.

Attended a talk

& went to town to meet up a lecturer for an interview of sch project.

__9am to 8pm_

-.-''

Afterwhich, went to 85 as said despite of all other progs/issues to meet the 4I pals! (4 of us only tho) A pity dint take any photos.

Next day (today), dint went to school. Woke late and prepared to get a cab but unknowingly, I turned back home anddddd I cancelled work as well~!

Enjoyed this time of my own~ its been so long since I could vcd and enjoy snacks in my lil air con room lying on the bed lazing like this!

hehehe!

2008-09-20T12:33:00.005+08:00

Aight, its seems so long since I've blogged.

Similarly, It'll be random..

& I just changed to this new blogskin. how is it? haha! I'm gonna edit more~
Its taking loads of time to get every code right.

-.-

This is dbl 0 on last thurs I think.

SPOILT !!

sighs + argh

( we who know will know why.)

Went katong ktv, 'Tio Heng' sometime last week too I reckon. Its been so long since I last went. Really sang, not bad. lol.

& this is him who is on POP and was with me for bout 10 or slightly more days.

But its ending soon..

Posted to : driver.

haha

The craze on snacks outta sudden

hehe!

Have quite a few pool sessions recently. haha. wonder whats so great that we can play it almost everyday in the past sec sch days. & I missed em.

Went to sch for a dance rehearsal & wait, I'm not in the performance. I'm the assistant stage manager BUT

its nothing at all (for me) but '(what sounds better than like a dog?)'. =P

Did enjoy some dance movements tho I dont really know to appreciate those artistics dance. But seeing these performances for 2 years plus till date, I guess I had unknowingly liked at times. (=

all da best, ppl~

I will try my best to 'serve' ya. lol

Caught this beautiful sky while playing overnight MJ @ tanjong rhu

& then its time for the sun to rise!!

omfg

Lantern festival?

I dont seems to be really celebrating anythg much now.

But, the mooncake's nice. =P

24 hrs a day

experienced different thoughts almost each sober hr?

sometimes, it can pass so fast,

sometimes, its just so dreadful.

2008-09-11T05:38:00.005+08:00

People comes & goes~ who is the one that really stays by u? some says husband but I'd say FAMILY, thats it.

A pity many cant stick well. Sighs

1st, the GF? no more glynnis, stop doing thgs/ thinking on your own part.

Its very apparent.

So what if i'm trying to tell things?

trying to catch up? trying to say I missed that friend that was so dear to me deep down?

so what if I had given space when the time then needed?

So what if I made efforts?

So what did I get at the end?

jus half replies and rejections?

*-u were out like everyday with NEW frens or smthg*

-I noe it might not matter to u maybe even noeing that im saying abt u and most prob you'd just dont bother but I'm really upset with evrythg I see from u now.

- Just tell me I'm not treasured by you-

(There's nothing for me to reflect for after so much)

Im not jealous, not wanting attention, not trying to hit at the back ( if you were here I guess its time I tell u too) I'm just stating the facts. U should realize for yourself just what kind of person u really are as to different roles.

Ps: Not saying ya're bad.

peace_regained as just a friend in me like U ALR DID.

R/s?

(His last take b4 POP)

I din get to go to the parade like mayn of u might had went for yr bf's. I bet many of you goes to yr bf's house, knows the family well and feels good, stays over, go out together etc ya? I

Not for all if u noe me.

Dont feel like saying in details regarding all the issues in me. For us, I just feels that the day will come again. U left me helpless & speechless with your 'innocent' & unknowing attackes.

_MJ, MJ & MJ?

Found this @ MUEE & my brain is washed with all the tiles.

Missed my ladies night again cus evryone so last min suprise. -.-''

Met up with syl & jes today's NOON to do some work @ TCC (dhoby ghuat) & we merely discussed? ....

Jes dont wanna take so its just me & syl !

I'm lost.

- I've a strong feeling I'm gonna be down.

Life still goes on....

2008-09-07T18:41:00.004+08:00

Tell me why are we like this!!

I dont wanna stay in this stage at the end after yearssssss you know?

Its true that it takes 100 days to build but just 1 minute to destroy.

Why are people so idiotic??!?!

You're not the only one being hurt, upset and unhappy.

If I don't give a hoot abt u, I wouldn't be affected so much.

I cant help feeling that its just not right and I just cant bring out the courage to face it after so long.

I cant stop the frustration vent out by being saddened.

I cant put words to smooth the ears and enables understanding.

I really hope you can be how I wanted, at least more than half, by now.

SO MUCH BEFORE YOU GO AGAIN & WHAT WILL IT BE LIKE AGAIN....

I think I cant take it and I need to hide away but....

2008-09-05T13:32:00.002+08:00

Its been almost 36 hours that I've been awake

Mahjong-ed thru the whole night & headed to sch straight

*Ahem, I went OK!

And I still can go tampines stroll for awhile, watch vcd and do some laundry?

Superwomen? I was shocked by myself too.

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2008-09-03T23:50:00.002+08:00

YES I'M BEING VERY WORDY NOW

(Its for my own 'vent out' purposes yar)

Its not that I'm being emo but I reckon that this is the low periods in me that might not be apparent to u.

I dont tell as much as before neither do I show much especially to people who's not really bothered and so into themselves yet trying to 'act' like they'll be there and end up!!-flyyyy to their world.... But yar, I'd still need someone someday to vent evrything that's kept inside; be it cry out/drink down to sorrows/club till leg cramp/overnight talk and excessive cigging. haha. But thing is, who is it?? I recalled that the worst time I had before, its almost always some others who's there. Is god implying something?? hahs.

I goes to school and work as normal as I can be. I tried to fulfill everything I could and ought. And I'm getting really sick & tired. If it weren't for all those............

( There's the reasons and hidden wishes in me, u know? NO. )

And fcuk my work, I suffered unfairness in a way! ha.

Rightaway, I'm just worried/heartaching for adults(*my dad) who's swallowing all the shits they encounter at work for the sake of a 'ricebowl' for the family.

sighs.

Guess its only by sleeping, I won't feel anything worse ya.

Things changes as time passes.

I used to thought I was very fortunate to have a group of sisters aka buddies, one true BF and perfect family.

I hope time could turn back to when I was feeling so fortunate but no, I've to admit its not that fortunate as I thought and harder to be as time passes.

Now, when I need any of them, they ain't that 'available' straight too. (even not really trying to seek, can alr predict)

Do understand that people grow into their lives more as we grow but isn't it such a pity?

Realized we aren't the best of all in any way now.

People comes and goes- I had already seen that fact but still, I cant help feeling upset and shitty.

Once at a period of time when I dint had the group & bf (sorry for not counting other individuals), I had this GF and we were so close, so steady and good. I felt supported and cared and vice versa. Its not what those typical people does; the 'half-half efforts'. Now, can only say we fell under the same category as described above. Nevertheless, thanks.

I wanna club, drink till drop and go mad for somewhile. A getaway is best but, sighs. I wanna go missing but, so childish? haha. mayb can try.

Glynnis

"Its hard to say what she really needs as she fear"..

2008-09-02T00:36:00.003+08:00

Feeling so wrong inside and I feels that I've no one that I'd really want to turn to(for now maybe) and therefore, blog, thanks!

There's always unhappiness & its getting dreadful as I hear/see/feel it from just the closest.

I seek into who I have for enough reliance and genuine heart which comprises of 'loyalty' and deep considerations but to no avail.

Sometimes, I wonder if Im in oblivion. 'haha!'

This world isn't fair at all and people dont always rememebers you when they got themself something; not just in terms of materials.

I do hope to live for myself & live by myself but I simply cant bear emptiness. Even on the surface I'm not lonely, I usually feels so. Probably due to the lack of understanding and real type of companionship. I'm really trying my best to stand right straight up as I fear for the lowest period that could take me away.

I'm left speechless.

Monday tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday sunday monday tuesday.......

Life's but a cycle with all emotions.

Do u know just how hard is it to have a perfect soulmate?

2008-08-29T14:33:00.003+08:00

Mahjong-ed!! (almost nothing new?) hehs

Ended the game at ard 6 am!! and I'm having lesson and TP in less than 4 hours later. -.-''

And........ I woke late = missed lesson and........THE EXPECTED!

haha!! SUPER PROUD LA!

Zzzzzzzzz. Why so many demerit pts? All thanks to the circuit road-maker =P

(aight, I was nervous and panicked when the station I belittle the most gave problems on TP)

Lazy to go into details here.

Not sad but feeling the 'sian-ness'.

Waste money, time and efforts. Oh, my poor instructor too. lol

Nvm, next will be november ya?

2008-08-27T23:17:00.002+08:00

Feeling so wasted ! ~

There goes my ladies night @ st James ! Really thought I'd go - rushed off earlier from work, bathed and picked my clothes but end up, I still fell asleep. Perhaps my days are really too tired and rushed for my body to take alr? So, I struggled to give the plan up and said:

"U all go ahead without me" !

=((( Enjoy YOURSELVES~

*angela angela, I noe u most prob wont be reading this but just want to note here saying Im sorry for backing out at last. Hope u understand and that I really wish to meet u up for somethg else than club for least once (= loves!

- Partially for you I gave the thought up too but it seemed redundant. Admit I somehow regretted.

Nvm, there's always next ! looking forward. *Girls, party yea? (=

Im feeling:

Tired

stressed

lifeless

2008-08-24T23:52:00.003+08:00

The only time I am really very free for that weekdays was the journey taken to reach destinations? And I pondered over many thgs at times.

Feels that its been a long time since I blooged with pictures about each day. Yes, its a bother taking pic of food and places and people. LOL. But, there are still times I'd do. Am alil lazy to emphasize/elaborate thgs now. School & work seems redundant to mention much abt.

Mahjong-ed, drove for the fcuking license, met up with some peeps, went for some drinks. Thats pretty all? Here's some pics.

The lecture notes I had after 3 hours -.-''

Thanks for the help for my 'project-biz' kins =D

The efforts

& courage. lol

School works are piling outta sudden. Its my time to say 'project, assignments and etc' Am trying very hard to balance everything. Tp on friday, am thinkin of cancelling cus I don see a point. Tough days at times, really.

Thats my bf & my sis's bf riding the bicycle with whole load of food that we shopped for at loyang point. Great feeling.

Scenario: He fetched me, sis's bf fetched her. Rode together side by side as possible with us, the 'pillions', holding an umbrella high up on one hand and cig on another. Went by the coolest wind ~ hehe.

We steamboat-ed

Incomprehensive feel of warmth (=

Yellow Me & Janee __Chinatown

Went cherry and its sucks, to me. =P

That day was totally ruined for me. I might as well not go, seriously. sighs. However, thanks monster looking after together and not leaving me alone any everywhere. Hope to have a better night out with you all? mMm.

*opps, I dint take photos of me & him, again. =(( Tried wanting to talk some things out but... You saw my tears, I seen your efforts, thats prob enough. Am glad I got you actually even tho I don seems to.

Seriously, how many people are truly happy here? how many are getting what they want? what's your definition of life/perfection/happiness? -just wondering if smone could share some genuine enlightenments for me. I feels that I need someone really strong, true, mature and thoughtful to hold me when I need to fall. I dont really dare to fall cus I don see anyone who can really give me the support and concern I needed? -Maybe my expectations are high, whatever. Seems to be seeing some change in me, good or bad, I dont know.

These days, I've not been in the best of mood and luck etc. Alright, as usual, finacially really getting stressed up esp now the things I'm paying for is getting higher and more but what I'm taking in seems lesser. But, these are all but monetary(vex enough tho), which I deemed external factors, issues. Now, whats what I deemed to be internal? Its the problems/feelings I have on the people I bother to as well as the things I'm obliged to I reckon.

For friends, I can only say that I see bigger steps to take to you individually than b4 and I'm tired too. Am glad inside that some long contact once contacts or further friends called to ask how I am and wanting to catch up and this is what the closest forgot?

*Gf, I misss you alot and am really trying to be understanding yet worried/concern abt everythg. I noe ya're older, been thru more and am strong but with the diff in characteristics that brought out diff actions. Just hope you noe, Im always your GF. U take gd care!

Take gd care all my friends/buddies/sisters and needless to say my family and love, despite all drift-ness/quarrels, as long as you were nice and true, I'll always be standing by for ya. - oh yes, I did wonder (as sm1 asked me) if I was giving too much than what returns and I agreed. With that, it turned me rather hostile/cold for sometime and thinking now, there shld be times when people gave more too ya. So lets not calculate the returns. Okay, Im contradicting?! - screams-

Have you scrolled your phonebook and wonder who to call when you really want to let out your emotions even when you seems to have so many ard apparently??

Ps: I'm not depressed

2008-08-20T14:49:00.003+08:00

Pack pack pack

Re-schedule this & that still pack & Im starting to sleep early so there seems no life for me right now.

- Sch stuffs, work, driving & plansss all squeezed...

Wed today but no, no ladies night for me. Feels =/ after turning down the calls to clubs, enjoy yourselves w/o me tonight ba. >.<

Not much communication made. I dont think I really uses my phone! ^^

But, not even HIM. and thats worrying yet sad tho its also numb-ing.

I need a getaway~ I wish I could fly overseas and enjoy !! =((

2008-08-17T20:22:00.006+08:00

Some dayss

Had a 2nd round of 'money not enough 2' with family, and of cus, 2nd round-ed for the sake of FAMILY! A nice non-occasion night (=

Randomly taken*

Blood love

Went Jane's house to see and spend some time with her while I'm free b4 my driving lesson. My first attempt in the circuit *faints.

Headed to suntec next morning despite having sto cramp -.-'' Cabbed and its ex~! Im a poor poor girl can. =((

Had quite some unhappiness and blue moods. Tears filled my eyes and I am raged with frustrations which had now turned me to a certain hibernation.

Time is sooo little for us now.. I dont know how to say that feeling.

*we wore all black.

Yes, poor and cramp but we shopped. We really did. Had some arguements and stuffs and I swear (maybe for me) shopping is a tiring and tough job somehow~

Fortunately, with his help, its better in a way~

*Xiaona and se eun!! I saw this similar bag that I had wanted to get from bugis the other time but to no avail and now....... Its mine again. hehe.

Not only LV & GUCCI all those are nice yea? I dont understand why some people keep buying those despite having a few alr. But they are rich anw maybe.

Pooorr me, broke jus like that.

* If who owes me money, pls be automatic !

You you you you you

I see that you you you are going further and I am tired of holding the bond so much with you you you you anymore..

-Feeling fragile & cold inside ..

2008-08-14T05:05:00.003+08:00

I thought It was just like that

But FINALLY~

Hitting the club once again!

Its St James still. (=

<333

There was abt 10 peeps of us in total. Had a great time 'exercising' myself out on the platform!! Its been a long time I felt. Simply feels fulfilled even having to suffer from legs cramps now. There's peeps who shook hands with me while dancing. hahaha~ And some perverts who got a punch!

This is crazy, there's over 15 bottles of heinekens!?!
5-10 / 5-10 and 'bottoms up' to finish it~!

To mention randomly; cab driver drove us round w/o midnight charge of almost 30 bucks to St James!! -midnight is only 30 plus. It was infuriating and GF complained. We had a lil arguement that evening but I believed that its becus we're close enough to have done so. Miss alot of stuffs and peeps but sometimes, there's just those boundaries!

I simply love dancing high up with no worries~! (=

2008-08-11T01:25:00.006+08:00

Individually portraying us (=

I dont know what life am I having/pursuing already. This year totally no feeling of NDP!

But good food just makes me content somehow~

I sees him less than 48 hrs a week now.

Shopped at shop and save in the mid hours and spent almost 60 buckss =P

The lunch cooked by monster upon waking up ^^

Our foursome frog leg's supper @ G7 =D

The making of my own hands on prata sausage!

You might doubt but its nice!! haha~

Fried the macaroni again and it improved!! Realized the other time I put magerine instead of butter. LOL. All these food are of 2 day's intake. ^^ But I cant really eat 'heaty' stuffs yet. Stillllllllllllll coughing, sore throat etc. =((

Guess I wont be as busy as I were of last 2 weeks now.. Im gonna pack and settle more of my stuffs as well as to get back all of my lack of sleep as possible!! Miss outings~ hate to feel empty.

Im afraid I'd become lifeless

Im afraid at the end, I'd see no one who's really there

Im more afraid if I am left behind when I treasured evryone and thg so much deep down

Im afriad......

2008-08-05T23:50:00.004+08:00

Hidden behind the facades,

what do you noe...

Even the closest are blinded,

what can I ask for?

-Its been so long since I really cry myself out to anyone and I'm feeling the suffocation now,

I've only myself at the end.

2008-08-04T01:48:00.004+08:00

I've lost count of the 'events' dates.

As what I see taken down as pictures and remembered is here (=

A new day working at suntec temporary booth

Can see I'm bored as time pass (its only 5 hrs tho)

Basically, this is the booth of redemption for august's promotion period?

One man show~ lol

These are the items for redemptions

Otaku house's discount voucher( I dun noe where and what is it too)
Suntec's shopping voucher( I've the urge to take the whole stack away and shoppp!) LOL, jk. Its illegal ok. ><
Movie card from Eng wah(not sure how it works but Its surely not very beneficial) =P

The toiletries pouch which is considered to be the 'most unwanted?' but I think its not bad. haha The ping pong balls u throw into the 'game structure' and it defines what ya'll get by its colors. (I think I lost one ball)
'Nothing to do!' Initially thought it was gd and easy money but as time passs......

BORED and sleepy

Met up with bf and was indoor this sat. Slept quite early than usual too. A pity that I din take any pics with him. *Im also getting lazy and tired to do all these for blog and stuffs alr. hehs'

We then woke real early than we did on a 'no sch and work/camp(for him) day. Headed to downtown east and watched 'money no enuf 2'. 1145am was the show, woo! Its my first time watching an afternoon show! cool. Anws, I'd rate it 2 outta 5 stars ba. ha.

Afterwhich, I rushed home to get ready for my driving lesson. Seriously, I think I will fail my upcoming TP and whats infuriating is the money, efforts and time wastage. Im not having enough practices/being convered enough too. Anws, I dont think I like driving, at least for now?

This is what I tried cooking after my classmate syl introduced. I deemed it easy and yes it was but.. hmmm... haha!

The fried macaroni >.^

Sent my monster ang away to book in( I noe how u feels but hope u try to emphasize with me too) and headed to ade's house as planned days b4, purpose was to sort of 'celebrate' her belated bd but It feels more like a mini gathering =)

Her own-made pizzas!

Seriously, not bad eh! *See, I advertised for ya. haha. But Im still coughing, the heatiness is still strong that I dint get to really eat! arrgh~ =((

Had a Last min MJ with them after much of my 'motivation'.. LOL. It was a good one cus I dint get to play with all ebudds members b4. =) Also, we win and lose small small. haha~

Hailun is 'chup ji ka' only, lol.

A pity dint take photos too.. How I wish every week we can gather up, gossip, poke fun, catch up etc like we did. loves. Ps: deep down in my heart I noe there's a distance with ya now and a feeling so strong thats pushing me away too.

Gosh, Unknowingly, Im left with 3 hrs to sleep now!! Its gonna be a long weekdays after I wake. Sat /sun will then be my 'off' day' for this week! Nights!

2008-08-02T02:30:00.003+08:00

Had school and there's only 7 ppl in total today. OMG~

The J.S.G

Our lunch @ sunshine plaza's sarah place, its nice

and I ate the MOST! haha!

At stamford's house

Went for casting for a wine event at conrad's hotel but we felt that its not looking for servers, more like models?!

....

Took statistics and etc and all angles photo shoots. I felt really FUNNY. =P

The weather can kill me

I really cant take it

Its scorching hot and I almost sweat despite being in the bus~

Went over to Jane's place aft stuffs & ended up being her 'aminah'!!! -pack her cupboard and swept the floor etc. NVM.. when u're okay, heh heh. *actually I don mind doing these lil thgs for my loved ones na. ^^

Its been a long time since I had a free day esp during weekdays. Now evry sat I'll be commiting to suntec, weekdays to pw/bugis and downtown and sun to driving lessons and stuffs. 'woot' That means one week I'd have mayb a total or less than 24 hrs off ? I'd surely re-schedule myself.

Miss slacking at hm, MJ-ing, clubbing etc and of cus, the peeps! =(((

Alright, enuf' 'whines' Glynnis ! >.<

2008-07-31T00:59:00.006+08:00

Fav. flaming lambo @ zouk b4I MISS MY LADIES NIGHTSSS BADLY!!!!

I noe my posts are getting plainnn~

Time is really insufficient.

Living with obligations that had taken up so much time, I seriously cant do anythg else with much efforts ? My stuffs are in a mess and I dont noe where to pick up from now.

Some pictures that had been stored these days shall be randomly published here to spice up my blog alittle?

WORK

Many says Im malay >.<

Well, Im not pure chinese after all.

SCHOOL (I look funny eh?) haha.

The breakfast-lunch that was home-made by classmate syl (=

Enjoyed it at the rooftop of NAFA which is also our 'smoking and relaxation area'! =P

When lun was helping jane to wash her hair at the hospital (ttsh).

Seriously my dear, take gd care <3

Had this dinner @ teasire one of the days at work

These was taken today with GF regina @ streets!

I love food and its quite of a torment for me to refrain from eating fried, chicken and any heaty stuufs like even snacks =((

I seriously do miss that ass (regina). We hasn't been meeting/contacting much lately either.

money is never enough

time is insufficient

solution?

sleeeeeep!

GOODNIGHT!

*actually, Im feeling quite lost deep down.

Just what am I working for? what am I gonna be ? whats going to be of us?

-ETC-

TIRED!

2008-07-28T22:49:00.003+08:00

My temper's getting really bad most of the time now

I threw my phone on the wall

For the slightest things, I shouts, esp at home when there's 'noises'( yes, sorry)

I had given much faces to ppl who I finds '*&^%%%&

IM NOT LIKE THIS AM I?

what's happening to me?

Pms? mayb. But I guess its more of the frustrations stalled inside and mayb, the serious lack of regular rest.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

*punches*

Anws, this world is ugly and I really dont know who, except my family, the people are. love dad and sorry for my attitudes but seriously, I dont usually really 'scold' for no reasons too do I?

Your 2 years are hurdles for me each day too. I am really getting afraid of what ya'll say, getting sick and tired. Can we just compute the kinda ppl, reactions, words, understanding etc that we want??

ANS: NOOO!

So yar, life's like this. You gotta give and take always I reckon.

I miss having nothing to do for days again. *wth*

2008-07-28T02:48:00.002+08:00

This weekend is not very good.

Din really took any pics even.

Went crew room with jane, guinan and bf. It was really nice to see them talk after so long (=

Unfortunately, Jane had a bad fall from a glass-ed rooftop which is a level high and she's now hospitalised.

Went loyang tua pek gong to pray for her with julie & co.

_May she recover and get well soon_

Time's terribly not enough for me

2008-07-25T00:42:00.008+08:00

Upload of photos for last sat!

ARENA

The sand dance floor!

Springfieldersss BEFORE~

Them and 'no face' sister. haha!

my lest ! <3

You still exist in my heart~ <3

East coast cabana!

yearsss of friendship!

Went for breakfast with jane @ TANJONG RHU! hehe. Memories right! >.<

Shagged us by then.

This weekdays is nothing much but work and school with MJ and dinner or stuffs. I'm feels like Im fainting soon. Just cant get enough rest? ...

Btw, its 25th yea? gonna see baldy soon~ =D

Hope he's fine!

I miss him (= *blush* ps: I seldom say these. whoops.

2008-07-24T02:51:00.001+08:00

TIME IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME NOWADAYS!!!!

TIRED

UPSET

FRUSTRATED

MISSES

SADNESS

RANDOM POST!

2008-07-23T02:05:00.004+08:00

YOU-KNOW-WHO-YOU-ARE

I'm really shocked with what you could say whether in spite of anger or whatever. It really sucks for me to hear it from a buddy for yearsss. We all quarrels, I dun mind if you hit me back with vugurlarites etc but why in the hell do you need to implicate my bf (still nvm la k) but saying he cant satisfy me ask me go ONS with other guys???

*WHOS THE CRAZY BITCHHHH EXCUSE ME*

WERE YOU FEELING HORNY AT THAT POINT OF TIME????

Its totally outta point, its a senseless attack! Worst thing is, you dont feels sorry for even at least that sentence? I guess thats either the true you or the malfunction of your brain being caused by flooded hormones!

b4 you said that fcuking senseless+irrelated sentence, It would be a normal fight we friends has and for saying fuck off first, I might had already apologised but not at all now do I feels that it was my fault.

How would you feel if I brought up your bf's name when its totally no link and saying things like (for eg.) " he cant give you enuf isit, go be a pros or what la, can earn money somemore, dont come here bark u crazy bitch"????

U know how much I had seen u but still regarding you very darling-ly? you din noe. You claimed not being affected, I congrats you. But I was, so much that every tears at that moment says " she's bad"

IF YOU WERE JUST ANYONE ELSE SAYING THAT, I GUESS I WOULDN'T BE HAVING MUCH EMOTIONAL IMPACTS BUT YOU AINT JUST ANYONE, YOU'RE MY PAL, MY SISTER, MY BUDDY FOR 7 or 9 YEARS AND YOU COULD SAY SUCH THING. YOU KNEW ME SO MUCH AND YOU SHOULD KNOW.NOT EVEN ANYONE I KNOW SAID THINGS SO NASTY LIKE THAT WHEN THERE'S QUARRELS. I WAS REALLY DISGUSTED. IT WAS TOO MUCH. THANK YOU!

2008-07-20T23:10:00.007+08:00

THE LAST WEEKEND BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS

SATURDAY

Met up with JANE, IVY & some other ex fellow schoolmates from springfield (=

Went to clarke quay's arena

Afterwhich,

we headed to East Coast's Cabana after a bite at MAC.

(More photos will be uploaded)

We were all tired, some left first and the rest stayed with just a barrel. Played many games and the best laughs goes to truth and dare! LOL.

Ps: I've been sleeping at 9am/10am kinda timing and woke like 3 to 5 hrs later.

Am DARN TIRED!

SUNDAY

*SUPER YAWNS*

Met up with classmates jeslyn and sylvia who's my clique for school.

Went for lunch @ bugis- *Am starting school the following day and we'll see each other almost evryday. It would also means that we'd be going bugis almost everyday BUT we still meet @ BUGIS~ lol.

Me & jeslyn

Lunch @ MOF! *yums*
=D

Lil shopping gains =P

And I'm like broke now!

There's still many things to pay.

Burdens and stress is coming! =((

After the meet up with classmates,

I headed to

...

LOYANG TUA PEK GONG~

Shocked right? Cus I think I dont go to temples.

Well, main purpose was to acc GF Regina who's meeting with car accidents. She suspect she's cursed. Well, I'm worried too and hope she'll be.. (what's the word).. blessed?(=

I realized that we're always 'attacking' each other verbally.

1 OUT OF 1000 EXAMPLE (msn)

Glynnis__ says:
....
Regina says:
what that/
Glynnis__ says:
dotssss
Glynnis__ says:
told u to pray for yr eye
Glynnis__ says:
hai
Glynnis__ says:
sorry,
Glynnis__ says:
i shld put bigger symbols
Glynnis__ says:
@@@@@@@@@@
Regina says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Regina says:
ur fuck filty mouth
Glynnis__ says:
hahahaha

Well, even though, we'll listen to/advice each other alot.

Anws, guess what? she's CHRISTIAN and I dont go temples so we were like idiots who dont know what to do or rather, how to pray. >.<

AND, I think I got a not-very-positive lots.

Left- 1st lot, right-2nd lot.

i noe these are 50/50 kinda thgs and mere predictions/warnings but I did felt alil , Mmm, worried and insecure?

Misfortune, danger and villians are the highlighted ones to me.

-pray-

However, I think I'm more concerned about Bf who's in army and currently having the horrible field trip as well as my family.

Pls god,

bless all my loved ones.

Miss you monster!

Finally, I'm home~

And randomly, I just wanna show u my BLUE BLACK which is unknowingly there. Its pretty huge yea. And I seems to be having skin allergy? My hands and legs are itching and it gets red. *WHEN CAN ILLNESS LEAVE ME!*

Lately, time really seems too short. I am dead beat and there's school tomorrow at 9am. -.-''

Again, I'd have a tired tomorrow.

Nights_

2008-07-19T16:26:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY

One of my favourite passing time activity which can also be costly enough. >.<

(@ xiaona's place) =)

We, as usual, had 2 rounds and I lost this time but its okay(=

Just feel like killing GF Regina~ hahaha!

Ended the game at bout 3-4am and headed home

Someone came to my house and watched show but end up is I watch -.-''

Finally slept at 9am!!!! and I woke of HUNGER at 1-2pm~ *Yawns*

Its been really long since I ate fried chicken, snacks and stuffs!!! Its really killing my tastebuds! I miss those fooooooooooooood!!! =((

Dint nap anymore and went ahead for my 13th driving lesson. -gosh-

I really hope to faster get my TP over!

BTW,

This is my new house colour.

Yellow & orange isn't bad right? But the yellow shld be deeper huh. This looks kinda sick dont it? omg*

I miss BF

I miss some buddies

I miss some past

lalala~

Life is but a cycle.

Gonna get some rest and do my things

Should be drinking tonight yea*

Get me on the best alcoholic level plsss.

2008-07-18T01:03:00.010+08:00

Was it a wrong decision I made too hastily???

I'm back earlier than I expected!

Well, let me begin from the start bah!

Had work in the morning and OT-ed and was super tired, shagged and somehow sick still.

Home I went and fell asleep for not too long later, I woke to prepare my bags and stuffs to set off to M'sia.

Purpose was to go and help to work for Ting's family biz there. It was too busy and shorthanded.

However, I had this bad premonition and lets see........

I went down till khatib to meet up and tog with her BF (ah bear), we headed to M'sia.

While in da bus over to M'sia checkpoint

She dun dare to take fearing for her 'shaggy' face to be somewhere like here. ;p

They had a house there like a terrace which cost the same for a 4 rm flat in tampines?

-cool-

e living room

The staircase to rooms

One of the sleeping room we're in

Didn't took much cus there's pretty much other relatives ard. heh.

This what happened when I woke up~

SWOLLENED EYE!!!

It hurts and its UGLY!

But, still not that bad right? Stay tune then.

I wento work still, feelin excited in a way as it was a whole new thing !

Free advertisement for her shop! haha.

Working scenes

I swear its much more crowded than whats taken here when its really 'biz hours'. I wont have the time to take pics when really gotta WORK! Not even a smoke or toilet break ! *pheww ~

Closing time

Her ah bear sweepin stunt >.<

Arranged the tables to colors and shapes on own preference. LOL

The first working day hours was from about 8/9am to 8 pm and I tell you its damn tiring plus my swollened eyes is making me intolerant of everything. The dad then changed the biz hours to closing @ 6pm. Nice.

Shagged work with swollened eyes- Day1 I looked darn spastic. No one asked anythg about my eyes except for 1 customer! just 1! Zzz. Guess they really thought I was like this. haha!

The night to sleep waiting for the 2nd day. Wishing tmr would be better but... stay on and see~

Did this cucumber treatment for the swollened eye anticipating for the results....

Trying to be funny

Seeing so many cucumbers, I dont wanna waste so...

I tried to be funnier! LOL!

Well, I woke up the next day being disappointed !

It got WORSE!

And its much more painful and unbearable.

Still, I went for work.
Halfway through work ard noon 2pm, I'm feeling worse and I cant really open my eyes clearly.

I went to a chinese clinic(ma guang) myself which is nearby the shop to have some check up and prescriptions made. Cost me 75 RM.

By then, I was having fever. Still, I went back to work but being much more restless and struggled till closing. Slept there by lying on the table while waiting for closing to be done.

Upon reaching to the house, I had this really FCUKING BAD HEADACHE that I couldn't eat/bath/sleep. Vomitted like 4 times. I cried, I really cried, alot in fact and I hid it all up.

Ps* I felt really alone without kins/someone who really would take care of me. I dont feels taken care of. You can say I'm like a kid but I guess evryone turns fragile when being sick? I understand that you want to be with bf/stick with bf more (as I see) but its like I'm willing to go over alone even if your bf's going and I'd be there only a few days whereas he will be there longer, why cant you be more of a sister-sister attitude 1st? I would have done better if I were you. I sms-ed u tellin you how I felt abt the frenship b4 and I felt worse when I link it together. Mayb Im sensitive but I was really sick, I needed care BY ACTIONS not only by buying thgs you noe??

I'M NOT BACKSTABBING/COMPLAINING HERE BEHIND AND ACT NOTHING INFRONT. IM NOT AFRAID YOU'LL SEE THIS POST AS WELL.

ITS JUST THAT I DONT WANTO BE STRAIGHT AND MAKE YOU AND MAYBE YOUR BF AS WELL TO FEEL DIFFICULT. MOREOVER, I DONT WANT YOU TO HAVE TO RE-STAGE YOURSELF.

I guess I dont like to get things by saying specifically in terms of these. I'd observe and realize and had realized?

But still, tks for some lil efforts and stuffs, really.

Im missing my bf too then. And my dad, my family!! I was really hoping they were there / I was home when I was in sucha state. Can you, whoever is reading, imagine my situation and feelings at that point?? I will never forget that night. =(((

-family is the BEST and my DAD is my SUPERMAN again- (To be elaborated later..)

More showcases of this big-small eyed ME =(((

Do you think its NORMAL???

BE PREPARED TO SEE THE FOCUSED ON SWOLLENED EYE

.............

.........

....

-Cries-

Was alone in the room for somewhile and I really feels LONELY.

Alright, my dad got worried hearing my situation and my outburst of cries and I felt really sorry and touched. I SWEAR my dad is the BEST guy ever!!!!

He had wanted to come in the middle of the night to pick me home but I refuses so the next MORNING about 7am, he called and reached the house at bout 10 to 11am! FROM SINGAPORE TO JB AND DIRECTLY TO THE PLACE I AM AT JUST TO PICK ME UP DUE TO BEING WORRIED, which friend would do that for you??

Actually wanted to get ting to fetch me out then at least my dad wouldn't be troubled soooo much but there's no way at that time I reckon. And My dad had a really bad impression and am really upset that I was 'locked' in the house all ALONE and the night b4 I was sick. To prevent much more resentments, I managed to call ting's mum who's in SG to get someone back to open the door for me to get OUT. They were saying what if something happened in the house and I cant get out? -Actually, yar..-

Well well, so off I am

Dearest DAD brought me and MUM to JUSCO for a good meal (at least for the days there?)

Getting better but still... =(

HOME!

haha, actually, its not that I've not been away from home or I miss home like a kid that cant be independant but for what I felt and was like that night, Its really a relieve!

So happy and relaxed to be home. Least I have others and most imptly, my kins!! We aint good on the outside but when things happenes, I believe they will be the ones you really see. Esp my dad!! Love him alot alot. Without him, I will die!!!

Gonna sleep on my bed with my bears soon!! yay. =P

Sometimes ppl say things very 'nice' when requesting and when things are settled you see whats said are different!! I admit I am being indirect here but I wouldn't wanto calculate or let the whole world noes it all. Its a good thing having a blog, can rant your silence and hope for ppl to reflect if any need for them to/if they could. ha. Really, as I recall everythg from the texts and arrangements to whats said till plans are executing and in progress, I cant help shaking my head. Status of you somehow dropped in my heart now.

In all, sorry and tks. Take care and be glad there's him there yea. here's a slight goodbye.

Maybe only I noe what went wrong ba. Smtimes every friend is the same to me.

2008-07-14T20:44:00.003+08:00

I'm really really tired

There's like not even ample time for me to response to msg-es/calls

I'm, tired!!!

I myself dont understand why too but my life just sudd seems so cock-ed up and rushed these days..

And now,

I'm off to RUSH to Malaysia~

Im sick and afraid I'd fall seriously.

Everyone seems so shallow towards the real me.

Bye! =((

2008-07-14T03:55:00.006+08:00

WEEKENDS

Cancelled quite a few shifts of work due to over-tireness and OVER-sickness

Had my 'forgotten' driving lesson and this time, I'm learning parallel parking and its goddamned irritating using the clutch, see here and there all. TIRED!

I doubt I'm able to pass my coming TP lar~

My traffic rules sucks and I am really prone to accidents? hurhur.

Sooooooooooo, when I drive, I guess you really dare to hop into the car yea? >.<

Wish me luck anws, dont wish to waste money and time for that fcuking licsence. =P

Meet this self-claimed 'lok kok' attired guy with a 'lok kok' weekend! LOL

I'm so much better right? hahaha

We headed to bugis unexpectedly and did shopping =P

Intended for sumptuous dinner @ restaurant for our 'anniversary' with peeps but I was sick and would not be able to eat this and that so It was cancelled and postponed to the actual date on oct?

I noe its complicated, nvm. hehs'

While he's trying on his tops at everlast

End of that day

MY shopping gains, hehe.

Whoever who asked for shopping, dont worry. I can still shop again. Things is never bought enough and as long as there's money to shop, why not? =P

But I think I'm getting broke? =(

Anws, THIS shopping gains was sponsored much by him (=

I hafta book in too. LOL

Byebuai

I noe army is a really #@^%$##$% matter BUT well, there's no choice.

I really hope we can manage ourselves well.

Try on show. haha

He booked in hurriedly the next night and we had a quibble.

Time seems so little.

Next weekend is burned for him and thus, its burned for us as well.

I'd be seein him only on the...25th?

Misses and take gd care darl.

Last min plan

Went to katong for pool and geylang for supper~

Bunch of spastic army guys =P

*I'm sorry that I lied

I knew you too well and your situation now

I do feel real bad but I wouldn't want to tell you cus I noe you'll sure be very upset/unhappy/....

I dont like to hide things either SERIOUSLY but I guess some white lies are essential?

-Sorry-

And also, I do apologize alot in my heart for I've been seemingly living on my 'own' and not showering you enough feelings as you may need.

But in my heart, there's always beats of yours.

I'm really afraid and super unwillng to end up having committing in this 2 years with your army 'atttitude' for nothing?

you know, nothing stays the same and people changes all the while.

Lets say when u ord, how will thgs be /how will u be and be to me then?

-I always ponders on it-

Sometimes I hope I could depict the future and I can make the right decisions. ha!

However, I noe u love me. *hugs* Tks for the cares and words.

I did think abt the r/s and seriously, it wasn't easy till now and yes,

many thgs happened and may have had changed down the road. .

Nothing's for sure tho I did hope that I could actually settle down alr. =P

Bad memories sometimes still haunts me.

2008-07-12T00:18:00.009+08:00

UPDATES ~ UPDATES

Working day with some pinch of fun at the end. lol.

A slight intro to you guys?

"The cliff"

"Ice Rink"

"The Mourd"

Massaging area

Wednesday

Went to have my hair extention done @ city plaza and was actually working but end up, I dint went and headed to bugis with eun and met up with xiaona.

They shopped, not me.

My money invested in evry strand of my hair. LOL I bought somethings still tho~ (=

din't club as I thought would be and I'm upset and annoyed by some people and stuffs. Sometimes I really feels that I'm too nice. =p

Ugly human's nature is everywhere!

I can only act stupid ba.

There's always a limit tho

Headed home and rested, am tired too.

Still coughing badly. Gosh.

Thursday?

At GF's house b4 going out

Had work and then driving and MAHJONG~

Regina asked Xiaona to hide her stomach!!!

Sooooo.......

We asked her to hide her face and she did.

The four legs with one hidden~ hahahah!

Had loads of craps/actions and jokes. =D Good game. I could continue second round despite having fever and by the time we were ending the game, we're drained of energy I guess.

Above was to be a 'kuai lan' pic but sorry, I'm probably not cut out to be.

She looked much natural and fit for the theme.

LOL

The guys, as in xiaona's husband, danial & se eun's body-sticked-on bf, joel, together with danial's bro was also gaming, cock-ing and singing any-old-how-ly for the whole night. All the kids you can see. hehes.

Friday

My dad is the greatest man

I REALLY LOVE MY DAD ALOT! hehe.

I woke up and din make it to work as I was having bad menses cramp and cough. There wasn't anyone at home and there's also no food. The kitchen was also in a mess. I felt really helpless, I don't know what to do. I was in sucha bad pain till I could not really move outta bed. Guess what? I did cried. lol. and I din ans any calls as I was really struggling to be fine.

I texted some pals normally telling them my situation but I feels no use. Tho I dint say anythg I expected but I was hoping they'll at least come look me up, get me food, take me to doc on their own will w/o having me to ask as those were ppl who's close enuf and not staying within distances. but its just so, mmm, general?

Well, least saw gina's thots. Seriously, I'm probably kinda attention and CONCERN needed with ACTIONS seen from loved ones person? Hard outside, soft inside indeed. Or emo I am being for these days, I've been crying much more easier than I usually do and sometimes for no particular reason. I guess its kinda PMS symptoms and mayb due to being sick for too long. I just feels weak now. And BF's seems so far and hard to get too.

Well, DAD is the one. the superhero. lol. He bought what I asked him to and patiently find the store when he couldn't get and he came back with that food for me, cleaned up the kitchen despite being tired himself. He had wanted to sent me to a doctor but I refused/can say, delayed it.

Overheard his conversation over the phone. He seemed to have some problems with work. I'm feeling the ache in my heart and am always hoping he could retire peacefully and enjoy life but..

-Life-

Had my haircut and wash @ west plaza

Shaggy us + w/o ANY make up

Daddy again, came to fetch me from Regina's block and headed to elias to get his wanted durians. =)

He cooked dinner for me upon reaching home some more. He really deserves my time to time massages alot more. Alright, not to forget my mum la. she bought me medicines etc and she's kinder at poking me? The only diff is that my dad do more and have a nicer attitude while my mom is vice versa. =P

I hope dad could see my post and feel proud but he never will I reckon and I never know how to show out too yay. Hope they can feel then~ >.<

Stress

emotional

Temperamental

Emptiness

All inside,

shown at night.

Facades up,

by the light.

2008-07-08T02:10:00.003+08:00

Who says day home cant be blog with pictures? LOL

My poor rabbit who had been with me for like 6-8 years?

Sushi I bought home to eat after work at 4pm.

Well, I actually walked often enough from downtown back home. Its not too far and not that near either. However, I'm used to it. Initially, I tend to walk was when bcus I'm upset at that period and I walked to avoid people etc and to think or you can say "emo". ha.

and through walking back alone sometimes allows me to straighten out some thoughts?

Anws, I just wanna say I'm like an auntie who may walk and go to get any foodstuffs at central when I passed by. ^^

My best sleeping companions =D
Sometimes my friend who can't talk back too. lol.

& my warmth that doesn't hugs back, my support thats not strong, my punching bag that dont avenges and my tears dryer? haha!

Whatever, least they are ALWAYS there when I need a hug. =P

The messes of my room?

Been wanting to clear up my stuffs, pack the closets etc.........................

But......

-procrastinations-

Sch's starting soon. damnnn!

Monster is down and feeling very bad now ?

Sighs.

Army's always making them goes haywired

and the burdens is on me =(

I am stressed up!

Pls take me out to drink drink dance dance sing sing play play eat eat eat!!!

2008-07-07T00:55:00.004+08:00

Can coughing really be very bad?

I seems to be coughing much worser as days passed.

Had those minor illness like sore throats and flu and when I come to think abt it, its been weeks that I've not fully recovered and am currently having bad coughs that my chest and throats begins to hurt =((

Must be due to me not taking medications accordingly and ignoring what cannot be ate too!! But you noe how much I loved food yea~ sobs.

Am really sick of being sick.

I coughed too much till my mum woke up

I coughed so much while I was working that I couldn't finished explaining the membership's details to the customers and when I tried controlling myself from coughing out, my eyes turned teary. And as I couldn't take it anymore, I stopped and had a 'cough marathon' !

And just, I coughed till I vomitted!

Tell me now, is it very bad? Will I die? (-.-'')

I'm starting to be worried I reckon.

I'm coughing non-stop and I still cant control myself from eating right =((((

Ps: This msged middle of the night say miss me, that msged early morning say miss me.

but why I dont see you???? Well, take gd care my gals. loves*

2008-07-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

Now his solo~

Den mineee, still! Haha~

Together...

We are 2 humans..

lame-ed ! -.-''

My saturday

Dome

My treat! and after discount was 54 bucks? =(

lol!

Anws, It was dined with him- ang shu yi and his best buddy of 10 years mr __ gui nan. *forgot your surname. =P

Its been a long time since I really meet up/ talked to him. We were all a group of hang out thats very fun before and many thgs happened and then things changes as time pass... Rmb us saying " No r/s within us to prevent group breakage but... "

Anws, life's like that. Ppl comes and goes, Its gd to be able to catch up alr. Nothing stays the same.

Thereafter, Bf and I headed to suntec to get SOKA's concert tickets from my brother. But communication was made btwn them.

I dont talk to my brother alr.. Guess we'll ignore each other even if we bump into each other outside directly. However, in my heart, I noe, thats my bro..

Soka's concert ended bout 9.30 pm and we intended to catch a show 'dont mess with the zohan' for godzillion years. Slacked to wait for the movie time to come and made some drinking plans with peeps but it was blown off and when it was nearly our movie timeeee

....

...

We cabbed back and changed to head to changi for my stone grill!

Hehs~ Food again!!

After a slow supper that ended aT 2+ AM? We headed to the beach with 2 bottles of tiger beer and a e thitty-three along with the map we prepared for comfort seating. haha~

Cool huh? hehe.. finished all and I guessed he was having more alcohol 'kick' than me? haha! play what he lose what, no wonder also la. =P

We chilled and talked but not really talked? had some arguements after I started with my 'working in a pub' question and other issues came along.. I did felt for u*

*Know why i wanna work in a pub? of cus is the money that comes first and that I'm usually norturnal enough? Im ok with nightlife and drinking so why not I earn as I pass that life rather than spending each night? Plusssss, It'll not be long that I'd stay working in a pub. I just wished to earn some amt of money for some stuffs? I understand why guys dun like gfs to enter into that line but.. ..

- pending-

In all, my sat was a rush, surprised and 'food-y' day! (=

He's back to camp and I'm off to work now..

'SIAN AR'!

2008-07-04T02:47:00.008+08:00

Went to Night Safari.

I think its a wastage of my money =P

I cant really see the animals and its only a glace or two!

Turned giddy of looking left and right.
The foul smell suffocates me.

Mosquitos frequent my blood as well I think.

One word,

STUPID

hehe. alright la, its an experience? saw lions, thats the only thing I rmb most.

Oh, and the crocodile that was so near?

-etc-

Jus imagine you're in the zoo in the dark, thats somehow my night!

Watching show. lol

The girl style

And the man. lol!

Tried stomping. haha

Just like the dog, huskey?
Act close one. LOL. =P
shall I have this eyes on my hip to tell ppl, 'Im watching from behind you'. haha.
Xiang xiang~ been seeing her these days. hehs
The scenery from outside?

Tickets

Can you see it? basically, all I saw are almost like this sight.

Tram ride.

Had supper later on @ siglap's road HK cafe

Tell me why her face only !! nvm. lol
Dessert; Banana french toast with ice cream

Bill of about 70 bucks for 4 pax.

-gosh-

Im like spending too much this week eh?

Better save up.

You messaged me as normal and usual w/o knowing what had hurt me so much.

I felt like a fool worrying for nothing again.

Its not the first time!

Was wondering if smthg really happened next time I might not find out alr.

Do you know how it feels and what will your frens think when I'm asking them abt you and they noe yet I'm so ignorant?

I do bother about some 'face' and some of your Bro even never reply me.

When will I ever feel 'family' with you!

-LOST-

I realized my frenships are mostly a one way effort?
Just feels that I'm like the one there for you guys MORE than you guys are and it seems that when ppl are unhappy/having problems then they really find me out or smthg? Try counting the no. of times ya'll call me when ya're upset/needing someone and think. If any of you realized, I seldom call you anymore cus I'm feeling very dead alr. I'm not complaining and I might have my failures too definitely but I'd never stop to give as I can/possible to my bosom friends at least, Its just that I feels sad for myself when I'm sad and I dont see a friend like how I wished would be.

Tears flows as I finished typing those. 'haha'

Ps: Not pointing at anyone specifically but go and think, if you can agree with above, you might be one. *closest are the ones I mind the most. (=

I seems to be seeking smthg for time to pass each day

Am getting tired, really.

I wonder what's my life for sometimes.

2008-07-03T20:40:00.008+08:00

Pictures shall speak it all for my wednesday ! =)

Cheers with tequilla shots

and pops~

and heinekens!!

The us that night~

Its none other than St James Powerhouse

The girlfriendss (=

We bumped into each other . hahs

Dragonfly
Movida ~
Supper !!

geylang famous dim sum eatery?

waiting...

can we have more?

here we go..

and moreeee...

and moreeeeeeeeeee!

The finishes~

hehe >.<

Lol. food is something cant be miss and I'm always loving it =D

I'm really hurt and angry

You won't know how it feels...

2008-07-02T02:14:00.004+08:00

Photos for JB are out~

Prepared to go out~

And this shall be my M'sia purse >.*

Headed to Sim Lim first( Reminds me of school- Boooohoooo!)

took my 1st meal of the day & had our 1st photo shots

The journey... ... ...

Thanks dad and poor him, driving whole day~~ all thanks to him the trip was good <3

Eating lekor? niceee.

The places

The one shop we went to and gained many...

Guess what? the toilet really sucks. Be glad we are in sg and pls, maintain.

Choose and choose and with pretty much opinions, this is what I got for him. Nothing for myself here.

The last stop .

Mummy!! <3

Aint the colors nice?

Im trying to.. Hmm... be proud with huge brush?

The food-places~

Waiting for dinner to be served on the sea. lol.

They wouldn't take a proper photo, I've to settle with candid for them .

Just otahs? Nooo~

More and more to come. yums*

This crystal eyelash is only RM 2.00 there? & Its like $3.90-$4.90 in SG. -.-''
Poor shopping gains at last

Cancelled work and went to JB with parents & shuxiang! =)

Set out in da morning.

*Mum, Im sooo prone to quarrelling with ya that I feels that its unusual if we dont quarrel. Still, I apologise for my way too much of scoldings smtimes and hope we can seek peace. >.<>

I changed 50 bucks for my shopping and she changed 100 for more in case. End up, we used adequately and that means she got her eyes on more stuffs than me. Nice. hahs.

My high waist skirt~ not S not M. so sad!

you noe it xiang. lol!

Bought a tshirt for bf like 'once in a blue moon' and intended to see great response but FCUK, who noe's im blamed for 'evrythg' and he asked me to give it to another guy

FINE!!

and he chided me with vulgalarities and 'I hate you'..

Im super upset than angry actually.. But I guess he's really feeling bad. Lucky I managed to cancel a msg that shoooots right back and create a war and salvaged with a 'what happened'.

anws, hope ya're fine.

*I really din know what had happened to you and was pissed as u called just to doubt my location??

-let's go think k-

Feels distant somehow.

Returned home bout 11+ 12am and im working tmr at 9am. Am super tired!

Let me cry on you my bears.

Nights.

2008-07-01T02:12:00.006+08:00

Went to work still after much struggling thoughts with following dad's idea of the sudden trip to malacca!
So tempted and whatmost is that I love to see my parents out smiling.
Well, discussed and negotiated and I guess I'm only gonna cancel work tmr and go JB as time constrains then. hehs~

Met GF regina up for dinner during break and aft work, we went for movie.

Our meal =D

watched 'WANTED'!

=) Girlfriends (=

I wanna MJ and CLUB and DRINK till I drop~~!! haha~! Holidays is ending in 3 weeks~~!

Pre-sch's blues =(

Anws, one 'thing' I finally & suddenly wanna 'media' about :

would you like your bf to have a girl's friend who you dont like even b4 you got together with him and that she's always contacting him? how would you feel seeing their photos with her edits and saying dearest buddy and 'his name', her time to time texts and calls even late at night asking if he's asleep/at where etc.. There's once worse, she said her bf's not going over her house. LOL sia. There so many things if I were to list all that I could. HA! And rmb my bold point, 'you dont like her some more, not just that she's a girl'

I believed there's nothing but bf, you taught me that anythg could happen btwn a girl and a guy, right? Im not suspecting abt that kinda thg cus I trust myself to trust you at least till now. Neither am I really jealous. I'm just annoyed, disgusted and irritated?~

I'm gradually not affected as much as b4 but I just feels 'eee' everytime her name/voice/face appears. I dont see 'automatic-ness' ! she's, to me, fake( in front like this behind like that?), 'smart' in the sense that makes use of others to benefits, loves making gd connections everywhere, loves having GUYS ard?, the very 'TEH' tone( I dont like, mayb you like), 'hiao hiao?' and etc..

I know I might be 'bad-mouthing' on a biased view and I can be considered as 'act' too as on the surface, I smile and I talks to her if unfortunately met. =P

But its all becus we know (just know k, lol) each other for long and all are friends. Anws, I dont HATE her to the extend of not acknowledging her too.

well, time passes and thgs/ppl changes more ba. She had allowed me to see so much and hear so much abt her personality from her 'close enuf ' which cant be gossips. Plus the bloody 'connection' with my bf, It just proves that my instincts and ability to judge someone, in this case its her, is high.

I think there might be gd points too but not enuf for me to mention ba. And I think she reacted with the dont care and so? kind of attitude which I heard when someone told her dont contact my bf too much alr as he has me now. nice right? well well, nvm. I din heard it myself, forget it. but I can imagine.. -argh-

I swallowed basically cus of the friendships, for my bf and for all our faces and I definitely dont wanto mess thgs up tho I guess I've the right to.. anws, I gotta admit that I'm really unhappy and affected inside yet unable to DO anythg. No wish to do so either as there'll not be of much meaning if everythg needs to be said and handled specifically. Ppl are like that, it'll be like that.

I just wanna say that smtimes in situations like this, think, what's your closest who is in the problem of your problem's reaction or way of handling ? In this case it'll be for me to look at my bf. Then think, is it worth to be bothered if he's allowing the problem to bother me? Mmm.

Its been a long time that this issue was in me... Im always minding but Im gonna be cool abt it AS POSSIBLE =) we're at least mild friends too. Mayb girl, you just dont think, reflect and understand, its okay. Just hope that I wont have to make you do so in any way one day.

In all, I just hope my loved and closed ones stays a distance from her thats all.

hehs' I mayb possesive and fiercer/mindful to ppl I bother abt actually. but Im loving you ppl right too ok =P

Bf, you knows it best what lies were made involving her and how much I feels annoyed once her voice/face/even name reaches you. Hope ya dont make me feels unworthed for. Its esp you that I mind. Hope we wont let outsiders spoils us.

And anw, army really changes a guy I reckon. Im liking you more and we're happier together now I think. Ppl always dont cherish when there's plenty of chance/time together? hah. hope ya'll be strong and always take gd care, dont say depress cus I what, scared I what, I've always no wish to do anythg behind you my dear.

Angela shared alot with me and lil darl girl, I wanna tell you that if you're unfit to be human, I'm unfit too. Pls wake up and get out of your hurt from that 'friendship' you saw back then till now. u'll noe who are frens and who arent somehow. For any other things in life, its simply cus its life. -Im always genuinely here for ya esp in darkness, you'll just have to live on strongly pls.

Will the ppl involved in this long wordy post ever read it? hahs. Seems that I'm rattling too much for too long. =X

Am i dying?? I still wanna write about my family, my thots to them and some other friends/ppl and feelings to thgs etc ~~ wth! haha. its too late alr and Im afraid the sight of this post would scare you who might be reading. lol. shall save it for next post?

THATS ALL. ITS A LONG POST. -gosh- ANYONE READ IT ALL? HAHA.

nights dudes

2008-06-30T12:35:00.009+08:00

Last friday:

Met my jane and ivy up at tamp for dinner ~

Then I had MJ @ pretty pregnant lady xiaona's place!

Or shld I say its danial's place? lols, its the SAME !!

It was my first time playing at there(hougang)

It wasn't as 'out' as I felt before,

next time got chance will play again. hehs.

Conveniently(for me) met up with my cousin as such =)

hahas

Saturday:

It was 7am+ when I slept and ard 1-2pm, I woke up for my driving lesson~ almost 'accident'. lol.
Then after, I gotta prepare to meet my Mr Baldy for dinner and I thought he had to book in later in the night as I was told and I was prepared to meet him just for dinner which means abt 3 hrs. Therefore, I left evrythg to settle aside and rushed out bout 6.30pm and END UP: He din have to book in.

It was a surprise to scare me (to see if I lied abt my plans later on)~ hahas.
-suprised and shocked- & felt the slight 'arghness' as i rushed despite being so tired and had cast evrythg aside!! Overall, am happy he dint haf to book in la~

We went suntec and had carl's jr for dinner, shopped and wanted to watch movie but there's no time soooo, it'll be postponed~

Randomly takien at suntec

It was then se eun's pre celebration of her birthday!

After much draggings and plannings,

we went top one ktv and had a bottle of martell.

while we were waiting for the room. . .

Shu xiang & me

Girl, no matter what, take gd care of yrself and definitely this is a challenge, be strong and haf belief yea. I'm always heree *

The girls

(OTT, u idiot, nvr come!)

HOPE ITS ENJOYABLE FOR ALL, ESP SE EUN, THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!

HAPPY ADV 20TH BIRTHDAY~! <3>

SUNDAY

Came back and slacked at home feeling moody and sick~

My health seems to be deteriorating.

2008-06-27T01:12:00.008+08:00

Sometimes,

it doesn't pays off to be kind/honest.

I knew being a bad guy's role was better.

Have an urge to lead back that kind of vampire's chaotic life again.

Its an escapism through wilderment.

2008-06-26T01:21:00.003+08:00

Day out shopping with JANEEE after work @ BUGIS STREET!

Buttttt, its my photo here as we din take any. =X

(Queer smile?)

These are what I bought~

Spent less than a 100 know-!

Cheapskate? No, its street smart. =PpP

Sometimes, gucci, zara & bebe all cant be compared to these normal un-branded brands. Clothes & stuffs sometimes depends on how you bring it out. Its the quality, not quantity nor price, isn't it? you can beg to differ tho, but its what I believes. (:

However, I'm still aiming for my bebe(s), anna sui perfumes, clinique's foundation, gucci wallet ETC! u know, girls what, things will never be enough and money is always unseen.

So, dont ask your gf/wife where's all the money like my bf and dad did cus...

"WE JUST CANT EXPLAIN".

lol!

WTH right? hehe

Sometimes feels proud of myself despite being a student, I'm paying hp bills and driving fees myself. Not only, my entertainments, transport, food and ciggies are all enough to knock me out. I'm in this 'money-not-enough' for godzillion years but I'm still surviving good. hehs!

However, the lousy part is that I'm still taking monthly allowance from my dad.

Thanks alot daddy and sorry for my incapability to give you money instead.

I know you're tired of working by now.

-heart aches-

Btw, I miss Mj-ing , drinking and clubbing etc even tho these stopped only less than a week? haha!
Friends, steady leh.
Buddies, I miss you you you you~ sighs.

Se eun, not you! Cus I've alr imaged you and joel in one body with a new name called J.O.S.E. No more se eun. I'm nice right? hehs'
This korean love of mine~ Let's hope sat will be the day we'll be meeting huh.

All of us are turning old,
I cant help but to always miss the past.
Always rmb to treasure.
we might be closer today than next week u noe? So catch up more yea.

I noe that time can nvr turn back and so each day,
I'll search for my own lifestyle =)
-Everyone eventually changes, things will nvr be the same-

Im ain't much in my philosophical mood to blog like how I did my posts in the old blog but hope I'm still getting a pinch of my that very 'or piang' style. teehees!. >.<

Bf,
I understands how it feels to be in the army tho you wouldn't really believe it and I cant be Hua Mu-lan to prove to you. haha. Well, back to the point, all your worries, distrust, sensitivity and moods are alr predicted in me. I hope that I could handle you well and what you could help me is to help yourself when I mishandles and to take gd care always.

I'm aint getting what I wants not only in materials.
When could I do and get whatever I want? -sighs-
Any fairytales characters?
Pls grant me 3 wishes and my first would be :

World peace
Health & happiness
3 more wishes

Then, my wishes would always be unlimited..

aights~ I'm in a good and 'emo' random mood. That explains the way I post my post today. If you read this far and could understand -award yourself some claps* haha

Nights dudes=)

2008-06-24T13:41:00.004+08:00

Work work work! Its an easy, funny and boring job? Guessed no one really knows what I'm doing for my job.. Probably only GF regina as she came to wait for me quite sometime~

One of my love ong ting ting suddenly called up with a very 'high' tone 'shouting':

"WHERE ARE YOU?"

I was like, "work?!"

She then said she bought me something I'd love & need while she's shoppin @ Taka.

I was really suprised.

The annu sui orange coloured blusher that I looked at before when we went town the other time. Its the thoughts that touched me. *THANK YOU DARLING* <3

Isn't it very seldom for friends to get things for each other knwing he/she will need/like it? Also, isn't it very seldom that friends pays for each other's stuffs & say no need return?

-be it what sort of friendship, bf usually, definitely 'earns' more-

Now ppl, whats friendship & r/s? lol. Not to be serious on this tho, just a ponder. =)

Nevertheless, I do see it from some loves =)

And as a token of appreciation when she came to look for me @ my house with her bf, I gave this whole pack to them together with 2 pkts of noodles, a canbell soup of potatoes & mushrooms, COOKED!

With this~ lols. Nice right?!

Off to prepare to work again. >.<

2008-06-23T01:32:00.010+08:00

June 20th- Friday

Meet my Mr bald with his...

New look!

Wahahaha! Well, I was pretty excited before meeting him as I was imagining on his changes quite alot and when I saw him, I totally feels that it isn't him! Din really dared to get close! haha. Took few hrs to adapt tho. >.<

Next, we went shu xiang's and her bf's chalet together with ade and had a round of pathetic MJ!

There's NO mj table,
NO mj paper,
NO chips,
NO dice!

Rather, I shld say there's only Mj tiles, it makes it easier huh.

So, guessed what? Newspaper were used as Mj paper and my poor lil 'dice necklace' were used as 'dice'.. LOL.

Was supposingly to go for movie/shopping on sat with my baldy monster but we ended up @ PS to get my cosmetics stuffs and slacked with beers @ Istana park! ^.<

Had carlsbergs too and wanted to go for to the lounge @ Istana for more. lol.

Weet~

Shocked? If you're my good friend, you'll probably noe this 2 years r/s of mine and might be shocked that we can 2 person go drink. haha. It was good times spent tho.

I hope the changes I felt was real, true and plain good darl. =)

I missed alot of things, people and times. My bf's one of them, he used to be my buddy and I gotten over the fact that what changed had changed.

However, sometimes, it just got me thinking...

The random past memories.

Johor~ade, eun, me, lun & xiang!

haha! Its shuyi ting ade xiang ivy, guinan, me, jane and lun!
Bosom friends always in my heart~

Night outs before

( think we had more outings together when we were younger) -.-!!

The sch times. hoho!

Chalets period

2008-06-20T04:45:00.006+08:00

Woke @ 5pm, bathed and dragged, went town for WINDOW shoppin and I realized I need alot MONEYYYYYY~!! So many things wanna get and do!!! =( Money always not enough~!

Finally caught a movie after saying it for so long-
Sex and the city~
Really nice~! How I wish I've sisters and life like them~ hehs =P

'Laming' after spending 145 mins watching the show

*PRESENTING THE BIRD STYLE"

Toilet camwhoring~

And guess where we end up at?

DBL O!

It was so last minute,

we were not dressed up/ready to club.

Headed there for the cheap drinks and some groove of music thats all.

Entrance is free anw so why not?

Its good to be girls sometimes, SOMETIMES

Monster's out today yea? =)

Gonna see the baldy soon

2008-06-19T08:05:00.000+08:00

Am just homed from Angela's house.
Went for an 'In-house session' & had a 3 leg-ged MJ cus another one is too COMPUTER & 'unwilling' to learn~. lol

Guessed who? lols.

Feels that I'm just one of them, or even less important.

Its more of friendship that I'm hitting at now.

I did felt jealous, I did felt upset. angry and disappointed.

Made use/neglected/entertained when occupied?

-dont knowsss-

I sees too highly of us/myself.

Guess you'll be shocked/curious to noe if you're the 'friend' I'm talking about.

Already told you how I felt once but I still felt that feeling~

Why am I minding it so much??

maybe I shld fade away.

Loves still anws__ I'm so nice. haha~!

Seems so lest ya? hehs.

However, I realized that friendship can weigh as much as a r/s would bother sometimes!

Bunch of buddies I thot and yearn to last is not gonna be someday. We aint even there for each other much?!

Relationship dont seems very well in me too.

Family's internal conflicts and breakage is there.

_Sometimes really wonder where I belong_

God, take me home? =)

2008-06-17T02:00:00.001+08:00

DAY OUT WITH FAMILY FOR BELATED FATHER'S DAY CELEBRATION!!

Kbox@ downtown with family and their partners

'Soccer-ing' @ ARCADE

Dad riding FAKE bike HAPPIER than REAL one.

VIDEOS !

Many more, lazy upload alr~

Basically, had a fun night with my family altho I know that it dont last and its only occasional, I'm happy enough still. loves*

I really wish to see them so happy everyday, so relaxed, no stress/worries etc.....

Sometimes, Realities are just so disappointing~!

2008-06-16T19:45:00.009+08:00

Am feeling really lethargic and unwell.
No appetite, no strength.
Just feels like lazing and sleeping.
Feels so lonely sometimes esp when my house is always empty and when friends are
whatever-ing.

Friends eats everywhere, am happy I got GF Regina! =)

Bf? enlisted, and I din get to send him.
Anws, we've not been communicating well. I'm pretty upset and hopeless for the way our r/s is and gives. However, its been 2 years still. I really hope we can talk and trust more as well as being understanding! I understand that too long of a r/s will have alot of negative impacts, hope we'll overcome. misses* Take gd care and always wishing you the best*
Monsters.

Random pictures many time ago~

Love my dad!

& My family of cus! @ batam's ktv lounge( 2 extras) =P

My buddies @ bugis

My Bf & me @ town

Some people are just so fake.

No matter who you are to me,

I wont trust on you totally.

Its very disappointing when I see people here like this, there like that, even the closest.

-No one sees the pains and tears I shed behind the scenes of life's facades-

Min xiu came my house to have her dinner =D

Rest day home =)